I think shame and guilt might be the most common experience people have in their relationship with God. There is a conclusion that God is up in heaven with a giant clipboard keeping track of everything we do wrong and and the few things we do right. I don’t know if it is from parents, Santa Clause, coaches, but it is easy to feel like we have disappointed God and He is shaking his head at us and thinking, “I expected better.”
I have been meeting with people for over 12 years and have found that everyone has deep rooted layers of shame and guilt that drive our relationship with God and others. It looks different for everyone. Some of us are covered with so much shame and guilt we are trying really hard to make God happy. As if there was a giant scale up in heaven and every time we do something “right” we feel like it tips the scales of God’s favor in our direction. Some of us are covered with so much guilt and shame we end up hating God. We resent Him for making us feel this way so we deny Him, block Him out, ignore, overlook, and ultimately end up hating Him.